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I RUN WITH SCISSORS..LOOKOUT! 2003-02-14 | 4:49 p.m. Do you ever get that feeling in the pit of your stomach that wells up into your throat and tries to burst out in a horrible scream that deafens everyone in the fucking world. I have that feeling right now as I pound the keys on my keyboard. I have arms that are shaking, teeth that are clenched and a scowl on my face that would make an aged veteran run the other way. Stupid fucking banks, stupid fucking apartment complexes, stupid fucking roommates.......I can't be held responsible for everyone elses stupidity. I .....I....I'm drawing a blank now. I am full of rage and can't keep my thoughts straight. I am supposed to be happy right now. I'm about to leave Orange County for two blessed days. I'm supposed to be looking foreward to the gray streets of Oakland and the hum of a tattoo gun ripping my flesh to pieces. But I can't get to that happy place. This has been a stressful month. I need some valium. Well I guess you won't hear from me for a bit as I will have no computer access, but rest assured I'll be thinking about all of you and wishing I could be peeking into your lives with each free moment of my time. Oh and by the way don't think I'm pissed just because it's valentines day. Although historicaly it has been a pretty shit filled holiday. Hugs and Kisses Stare girl
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